I write these words in the midst of my own chaos and sacred dance with the universe as I try to find my way to surrender. I’m battling with this notion of surrender daily at the moment. I’ve heard the term many, many times and I know (or I think I know) that it is the only way I will be able to let go of my fears and doubts yet I find myself constantly searching for answers. I am trying to take aligned action yet being met with blocks at every turn. The frustration and sadness that comes with those blocks only leads me to the same message over and over. Surrender. What does it even mean to surrender and how on earth is it possible to surrender when I am riddled with so much fear and pain with feeling stuck? It’s a vicious circle to want to surrender but also hate being so stagnant. Wanting to be in deep flow, ease and peace with what is but resenting my current reality. A battle of the heart and the ego. A deep longing to be able to let go but also unable to release control.
Surrendering is so much more than an end goal to tick off your bucket list. It’s the opposite. It’s a way of being. There is no real answer because this defeats the point of surrendering altogether. I am beginning to learn from my personal experience that surrendering is welcoming an acceptance that there is no answer. It’s realising that the answers will not necessarily come whilst desperately searching for them.
I believe that surrendering to the universe, to the unknown, to the process that is out of your control is quite possible one of the most intense, challenging and beautiful commitments we came here to master. I called this title “the art of surrender” because metaphorically speaking there is something incredibly creative about it. It’s as a dance with the universe. It’s a masterpiece that unfolds as you journey beyond what you think you know.
It is so emotionally, spiritually and energetically draining trying to understand what it means to surrender. So my loving guidance to myself and to anyone reading this…surrender to surrendering. Let go of trying to do it and let surrender flow through you. Become one with surrender as you release the all-consuming need to figure it out.
